Portraiture, as character revealment, has a dual process - on the one hand, this is the artist's understanding of the fundamental of the person being rendered - on the other, this is how the person sees the self, as seen thru the eyes of the artist... they are not the same... sometimes it is the artist who sees more into the character of the person than the person - indeed, most often does, as the person senses so when preferring an artist doing the portraiture than the mere photograph being such...
This is called "Blue Muse", and she is one, if not the most enduring of my muses... there is an intensity of her which captivates the desire of tremendous pleasuring, not just of her but of the rendering - whichever one it may be she oversees... her wildness is invigorating, and lasts long into the night - until, exhausted, I am spent, unable to hand another dot or line to the rendering at that time, and must sleep, restoring energy for another time, and more pleasuring, until the rendering is at an end, and there is satiation ... that is the nature of the satisfaction the artist has or should have in the rendering done...
This is called "Blue Muse", and she is one, if not the most enduring of my muses... there is an intensity of her which captivates the desire of tremendous pleasuring, not just of her but of the rendering - whichever one it may be she oversees... her wildness is invigorating, and lasts long into the night - until, exhausted, I am spent, unable to hand another dot or line to the rendering at that time, and must sleep, restoring energy for another time, and more pleasuring, until the rendering is at an end, and there is satiation ... that is the nature of the satisfaction the artist has or should have in the rendering done...
I've only experienced close to that level of intensity only once in my renderings. Granted my list of renderings are limited, but "Jimmie," a rendering of a colt I raised to a two-year old and then lost to colic, was intense for me and I went to exhaustion every time I picked up the pen. The results, where maybe not of the painting quality, were a wonder to me... I am still in awe that Jimmie lives in that rendering...the look in his eye...the tilt of the ears... the angle of his head...but I haven't experienced that intensity since...does that mean I'm not chosing the right subjects,,,
ReplyDeleteThat I cannot say, as am not a portraitist, despite this one... I CAN do them, but little interest as a rule... however, the renderings I do go for often are like this if have taken the time to crystallize the idea as much as possible... of course, too, if am taking too much time away from working on a rendering, then the muse tends to wander away - and that intensity dies...
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