Because most all of my themescapes are first the theme/titles, then the visual, from the mind to the rendering, it usually means making use of the imagination, creating in effect archetypes - symbols - for use in the metaphoric relationships depicted, which is to say the objects depicted are not from models as such, but the memory of knowing what the object kind looks like, which is also to say not portraits of the objects... for the most part, this is for me little problem because of observing over many years all manner of such objects I'd likely to make use of, as well as seeking in sources examples and from those mentally 'see' the object which is in turn made use of..... because there is much in variation in reality of most of these objects, deviancy from specific examples is of little consequence... however, when it comes to the human figure, despite 'seeing' in my mind what is desired, there has always been a curse of not getting the body [the hand] to integrate well with the mind...
the consequence is a preponderance of still life and only a few bits of landscapes between - not that there aren't a number of ideas from which to work, but the ease of doing the objects and foregoing the stress of dealing with the figure - for the figure it seems, unlike the trees or fruits or rocks, cannot be deviated much else it looks distorted or lacking in 'lifeness' - the difference between a mummy and a model... the consequence is also a frustration of not being easily able to see some of my visions as soon as wished, or even seen at all..... all my works are human glorifying, but many times have been accused of setting up stages, and waiting for the actors and actresses to appear - as if the effects of humanity is not enough... for a long time this bothered me, especially when it seemed to take much time in thought as was to create the integrated works - so turned to the still life as a means of being productive...
at the present, am it seems at a crossroad, and it is coming at a time not in my spring of life, which makes for an urgency and, at times, something much worse... an artist is and has to be, by the nature of what is done, a loner... but this does not mean having to be alone - they are not the same thing.... and when they are together, it can create an insufferableness, and a sense of not being at peace and integrated with the world around - a sense of seeming to be 'out of context'... no, for me at least, it fortunately does not last, or last forever, but it does leave an effect - a greater than wished interlude between creating.... so it remains to be seen what will come from this one..........
the consequence is a preponderance of still life and only a few bits of landscapes between - not that there aren't a number of ideas from which to work, but the ease of doing the objects and foregoing the stress of dealing with the figure - for the figure it seems, unlike the trees or fruits or rocks, cannot be deviated much else it looks distorted or lacking in 'lifeness' - the difference between a mummy and a model... the consequence is also a frustration of not being easily able to see some of my visions as soon as wished, or even seen at all..... all my works are human glorifying, but many times have been accused of setting up stages, and waiting for the actors and actresses to appear - as if the effects of humanity is not enough... for a long time this bothered me, especially when it seemed to take much time in thought as was to create the integrated works - so turned to the still life as a means of being productive...
at the present, am it seems at a crossroad, and it is coming at a time not in my spring of life, which makes for an urgency and, at times, something much worse... an artist is and has to be, by the nature of what is done, a loner... but this does not mean having to be alone - they are not the same thing.... and when they are together, it can create an insufferableness, and a sense of not being at peace and integrated with the world around - a sense of seeming to be 'out of context'... no, for me at least, it fortunately does not last, or last forever, but it does leave an effect - a greater than wished interlude between creating.... so it remains to be seen what will come from this one..........
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